Wednesday, August 28, 2013

The Abuse


I've gravitated to for a long time now.  Hours spent in wait for it.  Always leaving me wanting more.

The abuse.

I left me broken.  Into sharp shattered pieces.  Making me feel curiously alive. 

 The bruises were the souvenirs I scrupulously shrouded. 

  Until now.


Forgive my grainy self-taken photos taken to document the journey.  


The physical  pain dwarfed by the mental agony can't be captured in pixels.    

After a year of suffering, I finally realized this is all my fault.

 I'm utterly to blame.  

I've done this to myself.

Over and over again.

My abuser will stop anytime I want to.

But I beg and plead for it to continue. 

Because after countless hours of torment,



I can do this!  And so, so much more!  

(My recital with new pole routine is just two weeks, a set of screaming shoulders, abs on the verge of a hernia, calloused palms and too many bruises to count, away.)

12 comments:

Carolina HeartStrings said...

Impressive but I don't understand how you got the bruises/scrapes? Or that blister? I'm sure they don't mention that when marketing these poles?

Cerebrations.biz said...

You obviously flip for the abuse!

Marie Loerzel said...

@Carolina-The bumps and bruises are all from different moves where you make contact with the pole and add some friction. The blister....that's a whole other story unpole related.
@Roy- You know it!

Carolina HeartStrings said...

Ahhh... and a padded pole just wouldn't do would it :)

Marie Loerzel said...

It would inhibit the swinging for spins.

Leah Griffith said...

Abuse it or lose it. You're amazing!! Good luck on the recital!

Suerae Stein said...

You had me fooled. I've never known anyone to pole dance. It doesn't sounds like a class they would offer at our local YMCA. Good luck at the recital!

Muriel said...

Well, Marie, there is simply no end to your talents...No pain, no gain!

Ann Mullen said...

Quite a twist at the end of this article. I didn't even think about your pole dancing, even after your last article.

Amanda_MyGlassSlippers said...

OMG!! Well worth the abuse I'd say. That is awesome! :)

Carol Tomany said...

Totally awesome!! I couldn't imagine doing it. I have trouble with a summersault :)

Joy Page Manuel said...

The thin line between pain and pleasure ;-)

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