I'm a fraud. Pretending to be something I'm not. I didn't intend to hurt anyone or misrepresent myself, it just kind of happened. Over and over again. And then this untruth took on a life of it's own and I couldn't stop it. Mostly because I didn't want to. I liked the fabrication more than I liked the truth.
The truth is, I lack self-confidence.
I know my photos on social media suggest otherwise. And I know if you only know me from my on-line presence, that you may feel deceived. Because I've gotten comments such as, "You don't seem like an introvert, scared of heights, self conscious...etc." But, I do what so many other people on social media do, I fake it. Which works especially well for introverts, because using social media, counter intuitively, is a solitary process. And you also take a selfie when you're alone, feeling your best because you're dressed up to go out. Or having a fabulous hair day.
It only takes a second.
(Ok, it takes a couple minutes and 20 or so photos to feign just the right confident stance.)
Please see above photo.
Everyone on the internet distorts the truth a little bit, right? It's not so bad, right? But, one can't only incriminate those that post photos, but those that consume them. Because social media users are just as guilty of filling in the blanks with their imagination. Especially in this day and age where images trump words. Which I admit I am completely guilty of too. Distorting reality, however small and innocently. (And I didn't even touch on the power of filters and photoshop.) So, who's more at fault? Or is it a blameless omission?
All I know for sure is, I'm a fraud.
And you probably are too.