Thursday, August 28, 2014

Forced

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I had a completely different post lined up for today.  I spent a considerable amount of time on it too.  But, I ditched it.  Because, while it was funny, it was also forced.

I knew it from the beginning and it unsettled me.  But,  I plowed on despite my misgivings.  Investing more time.  Cultivating and tweaking, wanting to craft it into something it never was and was never capable of being.

Every step of the way I heard the voice inside my head.  And every step of the way, I disregarded it and plowed right on through to the next step. And when I was done and still wasn't comfortable with it, I contemplated publishing it anyway. For hours.  After all, I'd put so much work into it.

Why the hell would I do that?

I've learned this lesson so many times over and over again.  Or I thought I did.  Listen to your gut.  Be authentic. Forget arbitrary deadlines, meaningless statistics, stupid popularity contests and promoting sales.  Nothing, especially a cheap laugh, is worth the price of feeling disingenuous.  

Maybe, just maybe I've finally learned that now.

4 comments:

joeh said...

Sometimes I post stuff that I am not that fond of, much like you describe and it gets favorable attention. THat's what makes this blog thin so interesting.

Muriel Jacques said...

Posting is always a bit of a gamble, isn't it? I post what makes me happy...

Chantel said...

Couldn't agree with you more. Most things in life, if they must be forced, are not meant to be. xo

BLissed-Out Grandma said...

I recognize the truth in what you say. I always expect the editing process to fix what's wrong but sometimes it just can't be fixed.

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