Thursday, March 22, 2012

Soul Searching



I've harbored a big dark secret. And I feel so guilty. That's why I have to tell you what I did and face the consequences of my actions. Whatever those may be. I think my soul may be at stake.

It happened about a year ago. It all started out so innocent. We were invited to a celebration for a friend of ours. It was a perfect sunny day, one filled with reflection, love and possibilities. One where you feel so in line with the universe.

And while the day was waning, the celebration continued on into the evening. The way these things do. Everyone brought a dish. We barbecued. Swigged back a few in toast. I confess, there was a lot of toasting, which resulted in some being toasted. The way these things do.

When the evening ended, I still felt a bubbling bliss. And I crawled into bed at peace with the world. What I didn't know was my transgression happened that fateful night. But I wouldn't know that until weeks later.

When I was at a friends house and we were in her kitchen and I noticed a familiar package of pepperoni. So I picked it up and proceeded to read the label to see what else was in it besides turkey. Except there was no turkey in it. At all. And then the oh shit moment happened.

And I replayed the events of that night for my friend. Except I skipped to the part. The part where it all went wrong. I was at the food table trying to balance another scoop onto an already heaping flimsy paper plate. And someone asks me if the pepperoni in the pasta salad I made contains pork. No, I reply. It's turkey pepperoni.

Oh my god.

Three weeks after the fact, I realize I fed a Muslim pork.

I didn't know what to do. So, I did what anyone in this situation would do. (I think.)

Nothing.

Because I thought it was better for them not to know. After all, the damage was already done. And it wasn't malicious. But what plagues me is the fate of their soul. And mine.

Or is it more Collective Soul? Cause I probably shouldn't have pirated Heaven Let Your Light Shine Down either.

Damn it. That's it. I'm going to hell.

12 comments:

  1. No worries, Allah is merciful and forgiving.

    Loved this story and I think your soul is safe. Stop sweating and don't tell ;)

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  2. unintentional pork feeding is probably considered less offensive, right? i wouldn't tell either.

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  3. SherilinR has the right answer. But, to be honest, turkey must be chalal, too!
    And, if this person were truly scrupulous, no meat that did not meet the prescription (pun intended) should cross his or her lips!

    So, you erred- unintentionally. And, the person involved erred, as well. Whose err(or) is more malignant? Let's leave that to the Supreme Being to adjudicate.

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  4. May I be honest? If the fate of one's soul, for all of ETERNITY, at the hands of an all-knowing, all-compasionate GOD...lies not in the heart, but the stomach?

    We are all doomed.

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  5. I'll shed some light on the situation. . .I'm Muslim and in Islam if one eats pork genuinely not knowing, there is no sin upon them. You didn't know as well so no worries my dear :-)

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  6. Phewww thanks Elisa. Loved all the comments on this one. But Chantel, yours made me laugh :)

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  7. I'm visiting from Best Posts of the Week and I think your blog is unique and funny. I don't think you will go to hell for serving a Muslim pork since it wasn't done intentionally. Actually, I don't believe n hell. I hope you'll visit me at Chubby Chatterbox. If you do, press the join button and I'll return the favor. Have a great weekend.

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  8. Woah I would so bee feeling the same way. I have many muslim friends and I would be wracked with guilt if I did this!!! eek I'm sure it will all be fine though.

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  9. I once fed a vegan cheese without remembering that they don't eat cheese, and although my eternal soul, or the soul of the eater, wasn't on the line I still felt like crap for doing it. Say three Hail Mary's and move on my dear;)

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  10. 2 things:

    The other Muslims are right: if we eat pork unintentionally, there's no harm. :)

    and to Stephen Hayes:

    ....She ain't no Follaback girl!

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  11. I don't know about your faith but I do know that as long as you do good and love nothing else matters :)

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  12. BTW I came here because of your gorgious picture

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