Wednesday, August 28, 2013

The Abuse


I've gravitated to for a long time now.  Hours spent in wait for it.  Always leaving me wanting more.

The abuse.

I left me broken.  Into sharp shattered pieces.  Making me feel curiously alive. 

 The bruises were the souvenirs I scrupulously shrouded. 

  Until now.


Forgive my grainy self-taken photos taken to document the journey.  


The physical  pain dwarfed by the mental agony can't be captured in pixels.    

After a year of suffering, I finally realized this is all my fault.

 I'm utterly to blame.  

I've done this to myself.

Over and over again.

My abuser will stop anytime I want to.

But I beg and plead for it to continue. 

Because after countless hours of torment,



I can do this!  And so, so much more!  

(My recital with new pole routine is just two weeks, a set of screaming shoulders, abs on the verge of a hernia, calloused palms and too many bruises to count, away.)
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12 comments:

  1. Carolina HeartStringsAugust 28, 2013 at 11:02 AM

    Impressive but I don't understand how you got the bruises/scrapes? Or that blister? I'm sure they don't mention that when marketing these poles?

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  2. Cerebrations.bizAugust 28, 2013 at 11:14 AM

    You obviously flip for the abuse!

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  3. Marie LoerzelAugust 28, 2013 at 11:47 AM

    @Carolina-The bumps and bruises are all from different moves where you make contact with the pole and add some friction. The blister....that's a whole other story unpole related.
    @Roy- You know it!

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  4. Carolina HeartStringsAugust 28, 2013 at 1:19 PM

    Ahhh... and a padded pole just wouldn't do would it :)

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  5. Marie LoerzelAugust 28, 2013 at 1:45 PM

    It would inhibit the swinging for spins.

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  6. Leah GriffithAugust 29, 2013 at 4:18 AM

    Abuse it or lose it. You're amazing!! Good luck on the recital!

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  7. Suerae SteinAugust 29, 2013 at 12:02 PM

    You had me fooled. I've never known anyone to pole dance. It doesn't sounds like a class they would offer at our local YMCA. Good luck at the recital!

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  8. MurielAugust 30, 2013 at 4:05 AM

    Well, Marie, there is simply no end to your talents...No pain, no gain!

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  9. Ann MullenAugust 30, 2013 at 9:24 AM

    Quite a twist at the end of this article. I didn't even think about your pole dancing, even after your last article.

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  10. Amanda_MyGlassSlippersSeptember 1, 2013 at 2:02 AM

    OMG!! Well worth the abuse I'd say. That is awesome! :)

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  11. Carol TomanySeptember 1, 2013 at 9:08 AM

    Totally awesome!! I couldn't imagine doing it. I have trouble with a summersault :)

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  12. Joy Page ManuelSeptember 4, 2013 at 2:51 PM

    The thin line between pain and pleasure ;-)

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